2 - Serapis
"Sexuality"
24th April, 1995
Good evening, beloved ones, I am Serapis.
Good evening.
Yes, I have drawn the short straw tonight. We, in Spirit, are as awkward on the topic of sex as it would appear that you are on Earth.
I thought you might be excited.
Well, it is an intriguing challenge. You see, sex is such an Earthly experience, it is difficult to know why I am here advising you at all. However, we are aware of the intent in which you have asked us here and that is why I have come. Firstly, I have a particular point of view... particular interpretation on the subject that you want to ask me about tonight and I suggest that, as you would with serious medical matters, you seek a second opinion. Also check with your own I AM, because ultimately this is very much a personal journey that you are asking me about, and your I AM is the best guide, the only real guide at all. But I am here to reassure you until you feel that you are able to connect with your own I AM on this matter.
Thank you, I appreciate that.
How may I be of service?
Since doing the twenty one day ground ascension process, when we were given the advice that our normal physical sexual activity drained our energy, I've found I've not been interested and I think there are other women who have had a similar experience. Recently, we've come into contact with Taoist sexual principles and they seem to indicate that by getting the life force flowing, this is stimulating the energy and raising the vibrations. Primarily, this is what I want to seek guidance about.
Mm, Your question is all encompassing. Mm. (considering)
The sexual experience, as I said, is particularly a third dimensional experience. It is one of the great conundrums of manifesting here on this Earth plane. When we came here from Spirit, or were about to come here for the first time, we were intrigued and excited about what this aspect of the physical might mean. We are still intrigued. Perhaps, not so excited, but still intrigued, because it is the one thing that seems to be something different for everyone. It can be a path to Spirit if you wish, yet so few humans have chosen this path. So much is being done to turn you off sex forever, I'm surprised that any of you are still interested. It is only the thickness of the veil that keeps your interest going. It has been at the heart of destruction; it has brought down empires. More than that, it has brought down civilisations. It has set back... this one energy that you are asking about, has set back the course of the planet thousands and thousands of years. And yet somewhere in there is one of the most beautiful, exquisite, physical paths to spirituality, if one only seeks to find that in the energy.
So much of human behaviour is absorbed with the obsession of sex for its own sake - the physical act of coitus. So little is understood about the doorways, about the channels that it opens, about the fruits that it offers, about the flowers, the scents, the perfumes, the bliss. So little is understood about the path to Spirit through this one journey.
Let me, first of all, deal with the advice you were given concerning sex after the twenty one day process that you refer to. I am aware of the advice you were given, it is the same as the advice that you were given about food. That it should be avoided at all costs because it is densifying activity. Well, that's true enough, it is a densifying activity. But if you wish to seek the path of spiritual sex to find that journey, either on your own or with your partner, to the deepest realms of the cosmos as an aspect of your journey Home, then it can be filled with the Prana that the lightest food is filled with. It needn't be as densifying a business as was made out.
Remember, too, that it is also part of why you are here. You have all come here for a third dimensional experience. Yes, you have come here with the ultimate objective of finding your way Home, finding out who you are and where you have come from; and in that quest, there can be a place for sex as well. Part of understanding the other side of the veil can be found through this activity, if one's intent is clear.
The Taoist attitude to sex is very highly evolved. It is not dissimilar to the Kundalini Tantra. These two attitudes have sought to find Spirit, have sought to find the connection with the path Home, with the path to bliss, to the Creator. There are other tribal sexual rituals that are not widely understood, or known of, and they too have sought to find the sense of mystery in this activity. They are not new ideas, they have been around for a long time but they are not popular, because they are ideas, they are a path, they are part of an evolving process where one comes to terms with oneself. So little of mankind is interested in even seeing beyond 20 minutes of this activity. For most men, it is a matter of spilling their seed, it is a matter of control, it is a matter of struggle and, for many, it is a selfish business.
I understand your past lives, I know of your experience in this area, I understand that it has been easy for you to accept the path of celibacy after you have done this twenty one day process. It would be easy for many women... for many men for that matter... to undertake the path of celibacy, particularly if they feel it is conditional to their journey Home, or their understanding of why they are here or what their Earth mission is about. But one needs to be very careful that in undertaking a vow of celibacy that one has dealt with the matter of sex on the Earthly plane because if one has not, then it will come back to haunt, for denial of any aspect of one's self will only serve to lower their vibrations and create more ties to the third dimension.
This is where I've found myself. It has been very easy to accept celibacy until very recently. It occurred to me, then, how am I to know whether I am using this state of celibacy to avoid dealing with any blocks... past life blocks or karmic blocks or whatever, that need to be worked through? And I feel that there are things there that I still need to work with.
It is wrong for any of us in Spirit to interfere with one's path by giving them such specific information and preventing them from undertaking the path of free will. Therefore, I will talk to you in general terms, even though I understand your process well, as I understand the process of anyone of your evolvement, because I can look into them and see. I know your path, I know your past. I understand what has happened to you in previous lives, but you need to find this for yourself. This is knowledge that you need to seek for yourself. I suggest that you ask your I AM Presence, I also suggest that you ask for the compassionate help of some of the Lady Masters to assist you, in the general terms that those in Spirit are allowed.
As for the past, the recent past, and your not quite knowing where to go from here; a general rule is, to take it to your heart and see if it makes your heart sing. If celibacy makes your heart sing, then it is for you.
There is another thing that I think may be related to it. I've had a tendency of holding fat around my hips, I mean I'm not eating anything... that's going to create such weight. Is that related to blockages?
You would do well to examine the Taoist and the Kundalini Tantra approaches to this energy. They will assist in the movement of energy throughout your body. Then you will be able to tell if the weight you carry in those areas is due to a sexual blockage... blockage of your life force energy, or whether it is due to something else. Clearly, if you are carrying extra weight there, then you are storing Prana.
I've considered other things... trying to help that flow of Prana through and it doesn't seem to have shifted it.
There is some imbalance present in you at this time and you need to come to the realisation of what that is yourself. Also check with your partner. You are with your life-partner and the bond between you is very strong and the understanding between you is very strong. Sex for you is a matter of relationship as much as it is an individual thing. It can be either, but because your relationship is involved, there is no harm in seeking the assistance of your partner. Discuss the matter with him. Do not give your power away, however.
There is one question I had which may have been answered, but I'll ask it anyway. How can we tell the difference between 'being' in a loving, detached way and being in a state where we are actually denying feelings and avoiding those feelings?
That is a matter of being honest with yourself. If you are open, if your heart is open then the underlying truth will come out. You will understand this because your emotions will not allow you to cover that up. It may be that you need to get to this in your dreams if you feel that the answer is not clear in your conscious life. However, someone who has undertaken anything like the twenty one day process is unlikely to be so unconscious, or so unaware, of their feelings in that area for long. Just be honest with yourself. You are still carrying some fear. Allow that fear to go. Allow it. Recognise where it comes from. Thank it for its Service and allow it to pass.
Do you feel as if you wish to have a sexual relationship with your partner?
I didn't think so before, but lately, yes, I feel like I'd like to. I'd like to explore this area. He's discovering all sorts of things that just sound really exciting. I'd like to join him.
When you say you didn't think so before, was there a change?
My feelings before were, that I didn't wish to be part of... to be viewed as a 'toy'. It was given to me in a meditation to change that attitude and see myself as "being involved". This did make a little difference, but the feeling, the fear, is still there...
As I said to you before, this is not just based on experiences from this life time. Again, you will need to work through this in the way that you choose, to gain an understanding of where this feeling has come from. To recognise it, to thank it for its Service and allow it to pass.
You are an evolving being, as are all beings on this plane. Your sexual journey is as much an evolving journey as is your spiritual one. There is no need for the two to be separate. Be reminded of the fact that an obsession in this matter is not necessarily going to help you on your spiritual path. Now an obsession might take either form, an obsession for, or an obsession against. It is, after all, the same energy. That is not to say that you should deny celibacy, but you need to choose. You need to understand whether or not it is your path, whether it is highest wisdom for you, whether it will hasten your journey Home. And whilst sex is a densifying activity, inappropriate celibacy can be more densifying than the appropriate use of this activity. If you see what I mean?
Yes, very much.
Again, feel if it makes your heart sing. There is no point giving up sex if that choice doesn't make your heart sing. And there is no point undertaking sex for your partner's sake. His sexual journey is his sexual journey, and yours is yours.
Since doing the twenty-one day process, it felt like it was a purely physical experience and when you described what sex has done on this planet, that's the feelings I had for it - the activity. I wish to share myself, to express with my partner on all levels, not just on a physical level. And this is where I have come to now.
Is there a question there?
I don't think so.
You seem to have an understanding of your feelings about the matter. I am not sensing a question. I can only reassure you that because you have such a good understanding of what your desires are in this matter, then you are serving yourself well.
And I feel like I will find my answers.
Only you can find them.
Yes. I have another question. How do we move our past life blocks? Is there any specific advice you have?
Past life blocks can be difficult to move sometimes. There are various techniques that are in use at the moment that are quite helpful. One of these involves the use of Breath Therapy.
I've experienced that.
That is a useful tool. But I have found one of the most useful tools is that of meditation. To just go into yourself and ask. All the information is in there. The journey of finding out who you are is the journey of going into yourself - into your past lives; to go beyond the veils. When you can do this, all your past lives will be revealed and then you will have no need to carry the scars from any of them. So much of human behaviour is governed by what people bring into this life with them, either as damage to their etheric body or as the karmic balance, as part of arrangements that they made with other beings in Spirit before they came here. So little is understood; but all this knowledge is carried within. It is in your DNA. When you go beyond this plane, you will find how easy it is to understand this. That is the object of why you are here, to find the answers while you are here. Has that helped you with past life blockage?
Is it just the conscious remembering, the conscious recall, that is going to help those things to move?
As you travel along your journey, as you become more aligned with Spirit, as you continue your ascension process, more and more of your past lives will be revealed to you. This begins with the phenomenon that your know as deja-vu; a fleeting glimpse of something, that almost as soon as you recognise it, is gone; then you try and grasp for it but it is gone and you can't get it back. Like a snippet from last week's dream, "What was it? It's gone." One of your greatest allies in capturing those moments is your intuition. If you trust your intuition, you will know... you will be able to grasp those moments. To someone who is not attuned to their intuition, such moments, as they get stronger, if they get stronger, may seem like thoughts. They may dismiss them as something that they conjure up in their mind. This is where trust comes in... and surrender. To be able to let go of the concept that, somehow, your mind is running the show; and trust that you are getting snippets from your past life. It's like any of this journey, it is a matter of letting go of the blockage. Half the blockages that you have, that anyone of this plane has, is to the fact that they just do not want to accept that what they are getting is an accurate record of the past. It is too easily dismissed as being conjured up by the mind... fantasy, whatever. We need to trust. We need to open and allow the cellular memory to come out. It's really quite easy.
And once that memory emerges p; is that the process?
For getting rid of your blockages, yes. As the events from your past lives emerge, whether they come in your thoughts, or dreams or that sense of knowingness, as you allow them and recognise them, you thank them for their Service and they have no need to remain there. They are only remaining there because you have not yet recognised them. They cannot be released until they are recognised.
I feel as if I have not been able to help you as you might have liked. This is a difficult matter for us in Spirit as I mentioned at the beginning. I have a sense of separation in speaking to you on this matter which is an interesting experience for me. It is such a separate business. One of the reasons why there is so little communication between Spirit and the Earth plane on this matter is that it is an Earth plane business.
I appreciate greatly what you've said. It has helped, thank you.
It has been a delight to be here with you. I look forward to speaking with you again on matters that I feel a little more accustomed to speaking on. I bid you "adieu".
Thank you. Farewell.